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- peter is a 51 year old single guy from Maidstone, England, UK.
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- Member since Oct 17, 2006
If you seek some well-heeled and materialistic person please look else where.
If for that matter you seek someone who is spiritual, non materialistic, Look
no further. I walk a deeply spiritual path, though I do not adhere to any major or minor religion.
I am a real man not the macho type. And have been called dangerously
intellectual, an amazing man, a great bear of a man and just delicious.
I do not seek a mix of soul mate, lover, friend and companion etc.
This is a very rare thing and one is lucky to find it.
If you seek this mix then please look elsewhere but I fear you may never find.
I enjoy so much in this life.
From reading the works of Rumi and Tagore to eating dark chocolate and making bread.
This is only a small reflection of me to know me more why not get in contact.
Let's see if we walk the same path together.
Peace love and light.x.x.
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It has been a long and quiet day. A day off and really to hot to do much except sort the books and stuff nearing the end now thankfully.
And a long day emotionally as well. I awoke at 02:00 made a brew and listened to the radio for a bit but a cloud of the blue kind settled above and has hung around for most of the day. Next week I am 51 and to be honest I am surprised I have got this far lol.
I have come to realise in many ways I am sociophobic I hate being on my own but I also have a hard time with crowds. There must be many out there that feel the same.
It has been nearly three years since a date or any thing coming close to one. many people say there is someone for every one and in the Platonic view there is.
But in the real world I feel there is not.
I have sent a good long while on my own and I have only one regret in life which aint bad for a person of my age. But as I get older and spend ever more time on my own I find it harder to mix.
Being on ones own for any length of time can give other the impression that one is selfish.
This is not always the case for spending time on ones own you have only yourself to think about in most situations and then someone comes along you fall for each other but then your slighted for being selfish or not caring.
I know many who cope quite well on their own or supposedly cope.
I think a good many put up a disguise like I tend to bit like the tears of a clown thingy.
And when we go home to an empty room it hits home it is in many ways not so bad when young but as one gets older the loneliness hits home a little harder.
Much of society revolves around coupledom in fact much of life does to.
Even holidaying if one is single there is often a single supplement to pay.
Though I tend to B&B which is not so bad and this year I am hoping to camp out more.
I think I personally have a very different attitude to things which maybe be part of the problem. Looking through dating sites over the past few years have yielded very few results and in the end people have disappeared. With out a trace often they have found what they seek.
I have lost count on the Emails I have sent out but the replies are few and far between.
And I am now all written out. I see some one on here and I think yes I will write and then before I even type a single word I give up for I know in may ways it is a futile thing.
I am in the end just me my profiles have most of the info what more can I ever say.
Oddly though I blog every day and can talk the legs of a donkey.
I am quite taciturn. The chattering I do say at work is I think out of sheer loneliness. I talk of news items or something catching my eye.
Or the state of the bread lol.
But yes I am in many ways taciturn or is it a shyness for within there is that defence mechanism that says don't go ahead or you will get hurt yet again. Sadly thrice this has happened the last time was the worst.
But such is the machinations of life.
This time of year is always bugger for me most people reflect on life at the new year I tend to at this time as the days near the 23 May.
So the next ten days or so will be reflecting a lot and some navel gazing lol.
I was hoping to have next week off and that has by the board now ooooooooh bugger and botheration to that lol.
Well the one thing that never lets me down is tea and I am away for that now.
Be well all and blessings from the nice guy J
Blessed be peter XXXXX
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